I'm angry, need to do something about it.

I don't know how anyone can stand to be friends with me.

Really.

I mean I'm the biggest goddamn bitch in the world.

I say whatever I want and no matter what I say it's either taken a completely different way or no one effing listens at all.

I'm just noise in the background even to the people that "care for me".

I'm a liar, I lie all the time... I learned of from people that I know best.

It used to be baffle me but now I love it.

Everyone has their flaws and I' m not saying I'm little miss perfect b/c I'm not and I know I'm not.

Perfection freaks me out.

I never say thank you b/c I feel just letting you come in and be the one to depend on is enough. When I do it goes unnoticed.

I love it.

I really do.

If you want me to say thank you.

THEN THANK YOU.
This I actually mean it from the bottom of my hear.

B/c you just happen to be am amazing person, and I will also say I'm SORRY.
sORRY that you ever had to do anything for me since I've known you.

I'M SORRY.

You can have it written.

Now where's my thank you.

Thank you for everything I tried to do and the things I couldn't

You're welcome.

Don't put words in my mouth and turn it all around.

I hate not being included and having to feel like I can't get up to the level people expect of me and then tell me they expect nothing,

I'm frustrated.

It's a dark time right now.

I feel like maybe I should just run... People do it al lthe fucking time... Why can't I?

I'm stuck in the back of people's mind in this goddamn house in this room annd b/c I'm scared.

I'm scared.

So if you never hear from me again, know that I am gone...

Not even physically re-located.

B/c my haert is heavy and it hurts.

IT FUCKING HURTS.

I'm glad that you got to read this.
B/c it meaned you actually skimmed through it and got to think "What a bitch, this is it... It's over."

Then convince to me to come back and be treated the exact same way.

I wish I was stronger... Maybe I'll be stronger.

Maybe I'll say what I think...
Why not just fucking do it.

Tell that voice to shut up when it says I must look stupid...
B/c I don't care what anyone says about me.

Talk abotu me behind my back. There's no differnce anyways.

Paranoia is great isn't it.
You're not the only one with problems.

Probably the best time I've had was because of my friends.

I'm sorry I don't live up to the hype.

*bang*