"I told you not to become a Soc-"

On the sad side... A friend of my brother's named Josh died.

And it was kind of a big deal b/c I am not gonna lie. I had a HUGE crush on the kid.
He used to live at our house and he was always like the sweetest kid, and even offered to help me get a job at Scotch & Sirloin if I asked for it. [I really wish I would have taken him on it]

He died from having to take a new medication for his bipolar, and then when he passed out from it, he hit his head and went into a coma.

That was it. 24 years old.

I went to the wake and the funeral and... it was a little hard.

And I felt soooooooooo bad for my brother b/c he felt really guilty that he didn't get to hang out with him before he passed.

I kind of realized that I never EVER wanna feel like that. I think of people from time to time from my past and it makes me so mad that I didn't keep in contact... or that I can't call them up anymore just to talk.

So I hope I'm better with that in the future....

Both times though it did help to have that relief afterwards and spend it with the friends I have now.

Caity is new friend as I've said before who fits right into our random lil group of fierce betches, and all of us -meaning Caity, me, Al and Ash [b/c Brina has decided to be anti-social lately for the good fortune of having to pay for a trip to meet Twilight/New Moon cast member]- have been quite the socies.

Lol.

Random drives to the mall...
iHop [do you have any peach jelly]
Walmart...
Wegmans...
Applebees...
Sound Garden [still tempted to jump through the hoop]...
Ruby Tuesday...
OCC...
and of course the 3d movie...

Speaking of 3d movies...

Yesterday I guess is a day I am not all fuzzy [or sad] about...

At first I started trying on clothes, and mix-matching them actually to fill up boredom.

[I even got an outfit together that I called Josephine Jonas... b/c we were pretty much twins, except for his asian-ness...]

Then my aunt & uncle were coming from Rochester which meant I had to clean... which meant for me.... I'll make myself a taco and have it with chips and salsa, and get to that bathroom later.

But I was pretty fierce on both accounts, before Caity, Al & I decided to take a random Sunday drive to get Ashley so we could all hang.

So off we went to Auburn, and then randomly back at my house to watch JB...
lots of JB...

Like 4 hours of JB.

Yeah...

So when that became enough [Al left early for work], but me, Caity and Ash decided to go quickly to Caity's house where we met her parentals and her cute kitty kitty....
Before getting some gas and deciding to go to see....

Well ya know...

Anyways, we ate at Ruby Tuesday's and sat in Kevin's seat for a bit before going up in the theater.

We were the only ones, and honestly we didn't need other people, we were fine just being ourselves...

Dirty commentary....
Clapping and waving our hands...

But after a while, we just decided to pary like it was 1999 and we went all over the theater, it was crazy.

The fun ended, and we had to bring Ash home, and since I pretty much lied to my mom, I wasn't really suprised to see her call when I was almost home.

She got pretty mad and idk if it was bc of that that I like couldn't sleep but from like 3-6 all I did was think that maybe I should tell my mom I saw the movie b/c she would find out eventually.

So I did and what resulted in me being so furious I made my jb posters look like they were attacked by wolf and I tol my friends that I'm not going anywhere or doing anything this summer.

And I slept with 822949234923 texts about why, and asking if I was okay.

I really didn't wanna answer, but I did. And the rest of the day had been spent cleaning my room, and my walls....

I actually am kinda creeped out by how... PINK... it is in here, and something will have to go on these walls eventually...

But my parents now think I flipped my lid which is good and bad at the same time.

I'm such a good kid... ick.

But yeah I guess other than that every single plan I had for the summer is being put in hold.

NYC in April?
Satying over for a Baby Shower Bash with Unique and friends in B-lo?
Hannah Montana/17 Again showings with the girls?
Bamboozle [might still be going but I'm not 100% sure I'm Allowed?
JONAS Premier Party?
Ryan Cabrera in Philly & Allentown...?
Warped Tour?
Jonas Brothers...?

I'm not even sure... Am I allowed to go to my family vaca?

Who knows?

But for now I'm gonna try and stay positive b/c...
Well that's all I can do.

So yeah...

-♥PoCa [is wondering... "Do you have any peach jelly?"