It's the greatest thing that's yet to have happened... Imagine knowing me....

So last time I wrote...

I was Pissed Off Poca, and at this very moment, I'm actually kind of depressed.

Don't know why that is, but like I really have no energy or enthusiasm for anything...

It, of course, is targeted at school.

Sometimes, I feel like I don't belong there.

They say that college isn't for everybody.

Is that true or is it just laziness?

I kinda wished I would've taken this past year off to get a job, and then I would have a job, and then have a little money when school comes around too, so it would be a little more comfortable.

I wanted to do that when I graduated H.S., but then there's always THOSE people...

I mean my family.

My family are like a bunch of over-acheiver's and most of the time, I think I'm one of their biggest disappointments.

[I once had a dream where they treated me like Cinderella before the ball. Then when my fairy godmother made me beautiful, they treated me the same... Where's that damn Prince you need him?]

And I'm not a rebel type either to go against them, and still hold my head up high.

I don't what I am.

I don't know what to do.

Ugh!



...Happier times...

I should be getting my fairly disappointing Jonas Brothers in B-lo tickets soon, I hope.

I think either way it'll be fun.

I mean we still get to see the boys... it'll be Joe's Birthday so they'll be cake and mayhaps some prankadiesss [haven't used that one in a while].

I get to see Unique and be at DL...

And hey if they're giving away tix on the radio, me and Ally made a pact to take each other...

The way it all began and has been since...

[well Rose was with us the first time too... But anywayssss]

The rest of the week is and always is school.

Blehhh...

so depressing.

I actually do always have THAT one class that annoys the hell out of me.

Last year it was a basic "cut and paste" class taught by the Devil herself...

This year it's English.

I enjoy the stuff we read, but then the research freaks me out.

I am the only one who isn't writing about the graphic novel, and what seemed to be a great paper in my mind, now seems stupid.

I actually feel dumber being in that class...

And I hate it.


Other classes...

I am maintaining my average self in Sociology...

Art History is a piece of cake [my only tie to the art world]...

Math is great [never thought I would say that in my lifetime.]

Health is pretty easy [finally]...

and that's the way it is.

This past weekend, saw the Rolling Stones movie "Shine a Light". Pretty awesomeeee.

And I got a new cell phone...

Verizon too, so I can actually go outside of Syracuse and have my phone work!!!

Madd excited.

It's an Alias[?] I believe it's called.

Flips both ways... and I enjoy the flipping.

Sunday, got my 11th pair of sunglasses [is that wierd?] and then added my bro and his gf on our plan. Took all day long between deciding things and then there was a complication in just BUYING the phone.

We were seriously there for like 2 1/2 hours [the 2nd longest time I've been in there.... The "BIG TOMS" trip was the first]...

Dear Jessica was patient with us though, and she even left to go home before we did!

Dangggg...

Got home, then went back out to go to Weggers and made my parentals watch Sweeney Todd.

And then today I just went on my emo ways to school, and back.

I hate this feeling and I hope it goes away.

*fingers crossed*

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